I can’t stop staring, listening,
The words are so broken,
I don’t even know what to make of them.
The emotion behind them, the hate, the love, the sadness,
God it breaks me,
I wish I couldn’t, shut my eyes and ears,
Enjoy the bliss that comes with ignorance,
Because there has to be an answer to this,
A flicker of relief for my assurances,
Isn’t that all we’re reduced to,
Our own fragile hearts and how much they can handle,
(I’ll tell you it isn’t much, one crack, and they shatter into pieces)
How much more can we take,
The lies, the abuse the blatant disregard for any decent humanity,
I can’t believe we’ve lost it all.
Have we become such a broken state that we no longer know that it feels like to be whole…?
I’ve no power left with this privilege life dealt me,
And god knows I’ve tried to use the best way I can,
Wielding the mistakes and wrongs to educate and learn from my past,
But it’ never good enough, never powerful enough,
And I hate that the world reduces us to this powerless feeling on inadequacy,
Of lonesome and failings
Of everything we never hoped we would be…