No matter how I try to escape you,
You always remain in my shadow,
Tracing my steps, watching me trip over myself to outrun you,
Well…if I’m being honest,
We know I’m ready to fall back into at any given moment,
And that’s why I’m constantly running,
Afraid to give in, to miss you, to want to fall back into that mistake,
Trying to change, worth the wait,
All that bullshit follows me like a cloud,
Trailing water and tears,
But, running gets hard,
Begging to me left alone is hollow to those who refuse to listen,
And our demons relish in the sight,
No matter how I try,
Shocked and broken, happy and ignorant.
I know to always find you in my shadow.

“Trying to change, worth the wait, All that bullshit follows me like a cloud” both a very good line and one that rings painfully true….all the things we tell ourselves to steady our nerve and push forward when the easiest option is just to fall back and lose ourselves in the temporary joy of the reunion….very good.
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thank you so much 🙂
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Mistakes can come in many forms, taking the wrong fork in the road, marrying the wrong person, etc. Your words capture the angst of breaking free. Well done! 👏👏
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yes, thank you so much ❤
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Beautiful!
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thank you!
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