to have you

…It’s hell…
To have love, and never be able to feel it,
I see it, I know what it is,
What is portrays itself to be,
And yet, I cannot grasp it,
The concept escapes and I try and try,
I want desperately to feel,
To touch and have and hold,
Because love can’t be having you,
Yet not being able to claim you,
To have you in my arms and not be able to taste you,
That’s what hell is.